WHEN they were gone, Elizabeth, as if intending to exasperate herself as much as possible against Mr. Darcy, chose for her employment the examination of all the letters which Jane had written to her since her being in Kent. They contained no actual complaint, nor was there any revival of past occurrences, or any communication of present suffering. But in all, and in almost every line of each, there was a want of that cheerfulness which had been used to characterize her style, and which, proceeding from the serenity of a mind at ease with itself, and kindly disposed towards every one, had been scarcely ever clouded. Elizabeth noticed every sentence conveying the idea of uneasiness with an attention which it had hardly received on the first perusal. Mr. Darcy's shameful boast of what misery he had been able to inflict gave her a keener sense of her sister's sufferings. It was some consolation to think that his visit to Rosings was to end on the day after the next, and a still greater that in less than a fortnight she should herself be with Jane again, and enabled to contribute to the recovery of her spirits by all that affection could do.
伊麗莎白等柯林斯夫婦走了以后，便把她到肯特以來所收到吉英的信，全都拿出來一封封仔細(xì)閱讀，好象是為了故意要跟達(dá)西做冤家做到底似的。信上并沒有寫什么真正埋怨的話，既沒有提起過去的事情，也沒有訴說目前的。她素性嫻靜，心腸仁愛，因此她的文筆從來不帶一些陰暗的色彩，總是歡欣鼓舞的心情躍然紙上，可是現(xiàn)在，讀遍了她所有的信，甚至讀遍了她每一封信的字里行間，也找不出這種歡欣的筆調(diào)。伊麗莎白只覺得信上每一句話都流露著不安的心情，因為她這一次是用心精讀的，而上一次她卻讀得很馬虎，所以沒有注意到這種地方。達(dá)西先生恬不知恥地夸口說，叫人家受罪是他的拿手好戲，這使她愈發(fā)深刻地體會到姐姐的痛苦。想到達(dá)西后天就要離開羅新斯，她總算可以稍覺安慰，而更大的安慰是，不到兩個星期，她又可以和吉英在一起了，而且可以用一切感情的力量去幫助她重新振作起精神來。

She could not think of Darcy's leaving Kent without remembering that his cousin was to go with him; but Colonel Fitzwilliam had made it clear that he had no intentions at all, and agreeable as he was, she did not mean to be unhappy about him.
一想起達(dá)西就要離開肯特，便不免記起了他的表兄弟也要跟著他一起走；可是費茨威廉已經(jīng)表明他自己決沒有什么意圖，因此，他雖然挺叫人喜歡，她卻不至于為了他而不快活。

While settling this point, she was suddenly roused by the sound of the door bell, and her spirits were a little fluttered by the idea of its being Colonel Fitzwilliam himself, who had once before called late in the evening, and might now come to enquire particularly after her. But this idea was soonbanished, and her spirits were very differently affected, when, to her utter amazement, she saw Mr. Darcy walk into the room. In an hurried manner he immediately began an enquiry after her health, imputing his visit to a wish of hearing that she were better. She answered him with cold civility. He sat down for a few moments, and then getting up, walked about the room. Elizabeth was surprised, but said not a word. After a silence of several minutes, he came towards her in an agitated manner, and thus began, "In vain have I struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you."
她正在轉(zhuǎn)著這種念頭，突然聽到門鈴響，她以為是費茨威廉來了，心頭不由得跳動起來，因為他有一天晚上就是來得很晚的，這回可能是特地來問候她。但是她立刻就知道猜錯了，出乎她的意料，走進(jìn)屋來的是達(dá)西先生，于是她情緒上又是另一種感覺。他立刻匆匆忙忙問她身體好了沒有，又說他是特地來聽她復(fù)元的好消息的。她客客氣氣地敷衍了他一下。他坐了幾分鐘，就站起身來，在房間里踱來踱去。伊麗莎白心里很奇怪，可是嘴上一言未發(fā)。沉默了幾分鐘以后，他帶著激動的神態(tài)走到她跟前說：“我實在沒有辦法死捱活撐下去了。這怎么行。我的感情也壓制不住了。請允許我告訴你，我多么敬慕你，多么愛你?！?/div>

Elizabeth's astonishment was beyond expression. She stared, coloured, doubted, and was silent. This he considered sufficient encouragement, and the avowal of all that he felt and had long felt for her immediately followed. He spoke well, but there were feelings besides those of the heart to be detailed, and he was not more eloquent on the subject of tenderness than of pride. His sense of her inferiority -- of its being a degradation -- of the family obstacles which judgment had always opposed to inclination, were dwelt on with a warmth which seemed due to the consequence he was wounding, but was very unlikely to recommend his suit.
伊麗莎白真是說不出的驚奇。她瞪著眼，紅著臉，滿腹狐疑，閉口不響。他看這情形，便認(rèn)為她是在慫恿他講下去，于是立刻把目前和以往對她的種種好感全都和盤托出。他說得很動聽，除了傾訴愛情以外，又把其他種種感想也源源本本說出來了。他一方面千言萬語地表示深情密意，但是另一方面卻又說了許許多多傲慢無禮的話。他覺得她出身低微，覺得自己是遷就她，而且家庭方面的種種障礙，往往會使他的見解和他的心愿不能相容并存──他這樣熱烈地傾訴，雖然顯得他這次舉動的慎重，卻未必能使他的求婚受到歡迎。

In spite of her deeply-rooted dislike, she could not be insensible to the compliment of such a man's affection, and though her intentions did not vary for an instant, she was at first sorry for the pain he was to receive; till, roused to resentment by his subsequent language, she lost all compassion in anger. She tried, however, to compose herself to answer him with patience, when he should have done. He concluded with representing to her the strength of that attachment which, in spite of all his endeavours, he had found impossible to conquer; and with expressing his hope that it would now be rewarded by her acceptance of his hand. As he said this, she could easily see that he had no doubt of a favourable answer. He spoke of apprehension and anxiety, but his countenance expressed real security. Such a circumstance could only exasperate farther, and when he ceased, the colour rose into her cheeks, and she said, "In such cases as this, it is, I believe, the established mode to express a sense of obligation for the sentiments avowed, however unequally they may be returned. It is natural that obligation should be felt, and if I could feel gratitude, I would now thank you. But I cannot -- I have never desired your good opinion, and you have certainly bestowed it most unwillingly. I am sorry to have occasioned pain to any one. It has been most unconsciously done, however, and I hope will be of short duration. The feelings which, you tell me, have long prevented the acknowledgment of your regard, can have little difficulty in overcoming it after this explanation."
盡管她對他的厭惡之心根深蒂固，她究竟不能對這樣一個男人的一番盛情，漠然無動于中；雖說她的意志不曾有過片刻的動搖，可是她開頭倒也體諒到他將會受到痛苦，因此頗感不安，然而他后來的那些話引起了她的怨恨，她那一片憐惜之心便完全化成了憤怒。不過，她還是竭力鎮(zhèn)定下來，以便等他把話說完，耐心地給他一個回答。未了，他跟她說，他對她的愛情是那么強烈，盡管他一再努力克服，結(jié)果還是克服不了，他又向她表明自己的希望，說是希望她表接受他的求婚。她一下子就看出他說這些話的時候，顯然自認(rèn)為她毫無問題會給他滿意的回答。他雖然口里說他自己又怕又急，可是表情上卻是一副萬無一失的樣子。這只有惹起她更加激怒；等他講完話以后，她就紅著臉說：“遇到這一類的事情，通常的方式是這樣的：人家對你一片好心好意，你即使不能給以同樣的報答，也得表示一番感激，我現(xiàn)在就得向你表示謝意?？上覜]有這種感覺。我從來不稀罕你的抬舉，何況你抬舉我也是十分勉強。我從來不愿意讓任何人感到痛苦，縱使惹得別人痛苦，也是根本出于無心，而且我希望很快就會事過境遷。你跟我說，以前你顧慮到種種方面，因此沒有能夠向我表明你對我的好感，那么，現(xiàn)在經(jīng)過我這番解釋之后，你一定很容易把這種好感克制下來?！?/div>