Leighton Meester has been in the Hollywood business for most of her life-- and it hasn't always been easy.

The struggle of a controversial upbringing is just one of the topics she tackles in an interview with Marie Claire Magazine.

The Gossip Girl star covers the glossy April 2012 issue and opened up about how her life has changed. She was born while her mother was serving a jail sentence for drug trafficking.

Her father also served time for drug-related offenses. Leighton and her mother struggled to pay the rent when the young actress was booking modeling gigs and some work in commercials.

She told the magazine, "When you see how you react when you suffer, that's when you know what you are made of."

But Meester doesn't hold?grudges?about anything in her past and hasn't let her upbringing stop her from becoming a successful actress, who is now living the good life.

She said, "You can take what is handed to you and use it as an excuse to mess up. But I've always handled what was given to me by life. I consider myself lucky. I was never lied to. And I was loved."

For a sneak peek of the interview, you can head over to . Make sure to pick up the April issue for the full story.

And check out all of Leighton's gorgeous looks in these photos and a video from her cover shoot.

《緋聞女孩》中的Queen B莉頓·梅斯特近日登上了新一期的《Marie Claire》，并為雜志拍攝了一組華麗麗的風(fēng)情寫(xiě)真。在雜志訪談中，莉頓還談起了自己的許多私密問(wèn)題，她說(shuō)：“我的家庭有一段很瘋狂的過(guò)去，大概是我聽(tīng)說(shuō)過(guò)的最瘋狂的了。但是現(xiàn)在回想我會(huì)平和的去面對(duì)它。不能說(shuō)那段經(jīng)歷不復(fù)雜不糾結(jié)，但是我會(huì)用躲到外面去的方法來(lái)解決，我經(jīng)常跑到海邊去玩兒，那是段很快樂(lè)的時(shí)光?！闭劦阶约旱膽賽?ài)問(wèn)題，莉頓也坦白說(shuō)：“我到了18歲才交了第一個(gè)男朋友，我覺(jué)得這樣也挺不錯(cuò)的。但是我不確定自己是不是想結(jié)婚，一段戀情中只有兩個(gè)人相愛(ài)才是最美好的，我不愿意跟那些我只是覺(jué)得有好感的人在一起?！?